the times are a changin’

I realized I need to keep a clear mind. The easiest way is to keep all intoxicants out of the house. Will power alone is not enough. I wish it was, and I beat myself up over the fact it isn’t, but in the end it is not.

I just finished “East of Eden” by John Steinbeck. Lee talks about hating yourself being one of a humans favorite self-indulgences. I hate myself when I struggle, but when I finally give in a great weight is lifted. Be in the moment and do what is right now. Don’t control, it is a futile effort.