I’m going to attempt to post once per week. First a daily haiku got to be burdensome, then just a daily post did. I’m busy, and I’m writing a bit, but I don’t want this blog to die. When I have something on my mind I will come here. Until then – don’t worry, be happy.
I have been telling myself, writing to myself and everything else the following words: Yes you can. Sometimes I don’t believe it, but I need it to keep me pushing forward. In my own little world, times are tough. I know people would envy what I have, but sometimes I envy what they have. I need to keep fighting to make my own way but also know when I need help. I have a great group surrounding me, that is a plus. My truth is my strength though. Stay with that and I have to be satisfied in the end. Right?
The stronger your will,
the higher grows your own hill.
Love even the climbing.
I’ve spent 2 years working from home for a small, family company. I spent the 4 years before that in a large company, low pay and no real advancement opportunity. Now I need to generate a steady income. I can’t go back to the “real” world and “work for a living”. Other people have supported themselves, why can’t I? Fear. Weed. Trust what is inside of you. Try to really make it on your own. You CAN do it. Why not think that? Learn learn learn. “You rise to the height of your deepest admirations”. Control this moment and let go. Even relaxing allows you to move closer to the 1. Everything in moderation. You are filling your time with what you love, NEVER FORGET THAT.
I need to be fully me. No time for ego and it’s veil of security and human affairs. It makes me happy to hang out and create with friends. Or by myself. If I want to do it, then I need to do it, at all times. “At all times” is almost misleading, because this is me. Time is irrelevant. Right here. Right now.
Music has only been such spiritual thing for me. The pure connection I feel pulls me out of the dumps and it’s what I’m flying on when I’ve never been better.
No matter what is going on it gives me strength. I’ve heard it called the language of the gods and I believe that. If love is what we seek, music is the purest way to express it.
I’m clinging to it right now hoping to get through this pressure.
I have nothing to fear, but change is happening in my work life. I have had the pleasure of working from home for 2 years now, and getting back into the ‘real’ world, even on a part-time basis is frustrating and scary. But I have some opportunities to do fun things, or at least things with fun people. And I need to remember that at least it’s only part-time right now. Keep putting whatever you can into the career. The more fluid you are, the more efficient you are, emotionally, spiritually and professionally.
Everything is constantly evolving, but sometimes I cling to memories so tightly I am afraid to experience fully the wonder, happiness, sorrow and everything else that is a complete life. Purity and relaxation help stay in the now.
Always I need to focus on my Bliss List. I can weather any storm by sticking to what is truly me. Stress is best handled with sleep, exercise and healthy eating. Not drinking and smoking.