The 5 Pillars of Showmanship


experiment

experiment now,
so you can feel your power
in it’s humble birth


road trip

hopping in the car,
heading east until the end.
coming back rested.


the times are a changin’

I realized I need to keep a clear mind. The easiest way is to keep all intoxicants out of the house. Will power alone is not enough. I wish it was, and I beat myself up over the fact it isn’t, but in the end it is not.

I just finished “East of Eden” by John Steinbeck. Lee talks about hating yourself being one of a humans favorite self-indulgences. I hate myself when I struggle, but when I finally give in a great weight is lifted. Be in the moment and do what is right now. Don’t control, it is a futile effort.


turning over a new leaf

when i met you then,
i had not understood me.
now it’s time to go.


experimentation

Last week I decided to use my blog for a short story. This has become an experiment for me. I’m not sure which direction I want to take it, but it is helping me get back to writing, something I had gotten away from. For the time being I will keep to general thoughts, haikus and stories. Eventually it may evolve into something else, but I’m glad I’ve got this going consistently.

Sometimes when I find my mind wandering wishing I was a professional writer or musician, I remember that since I am not, I am completely free to express myself without worrying about what others think. This is the greatest gift. As long as I continually experiment and push myself to grow, I will be fulfilled and happy.


why, hello friday.

we meet again. i guess you expect me to work? but i’m tired.


temptation

when you are not here,
i cannot stop craving you.
when you are, i spite.


more motivation?

well my blog experiment seems to be evolving into a personal motivation site. i am ok with that of course, as i can use all the motivation i can get to accomplish my goals and leave my mark on this world. daily goals, weekly goals and yearly goals… short term and long. this, for today, seems to be my best answer to the question of how do i put my all into every day. i want to be creative, but i also have committments i need to honor. boiling things to their essence while staying active. this is my struggle. what is yours?


goooooooaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllls

i have been a very avid goal-writer since 2007. these goals are all over the map, but the help me keep my focus on what is important for me in the long term. when in doubt, shout them out? boiling everything down to it’s essence is so much easier said then done. how can i get there?