put your money where your mouth is

well it looks like i need to look for another job. i had a great situation but it is not working to support me fully. i spend a lot of my good times thinking of how great things are and how if you want something you go get it. so easy when you have no challenges to face. now i am facing a tough decision and an even tougher road. do i get back into the corporate world i despised? i have a growing family i need to consider. do i pursue a dream that may never materialize? struggle is a part of life. but how long must i struggle? how can i follow happiness and also make a reasonable living? i do not expect mansions, yachts and private jets. but i don’t want to have to live paycheck to paycheck, and i don’t want to be stuck on someone else’s dime. love isn’t coming as easy today.


here i am again.
the darkening horizon
approaching quickly.

can you get it done?

i am tempted to smoke. can i wait? why? why not.

tempting me

all i want is work,
clear, pure, true, honest hard work.
your time is after.


focus on as little as possible. i want to accomplish things, but i’m done stressing myself to death because i didn’t do something that should be fun and should pour out of me. as long as i am present, what can i complain about? the first step in effortless mastery is to enter your ‘space’. doing that in life is what i am working on. no more goals hanging over my head. love everyday, work everyday. be here and think what am i doing to make the next moment even better?

time is irrelevant.

can’t come down

high on love and you
i’m struggling to focus.
always tomorrow.


no pain, suffering
can be felt any longer.
have a safe journey.

here today, gone tomorrow

i woke to news of the passing of a local business associate. sudden and saddening. our gift is this moment, right here right now. you have no choice in the matter except to be fully present.

can you here me now?

i’m still right here. are you?


just another week,
meaningless in the grand scheme,
means everything.