What is Success?

Posted: February 23, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: daily musings | Tags: , , | Leave a comment

What if I accomplish something? What if I accomplish nothing? Success should be feeling fulfilled and happy. My ego needs fed. What goes up in smoke only feeds ego. I cannot decide on being happy or being recognized as more important.

Maybe my art will change the world someday. Maybe not? What if I’m gone before it is appreciated? Did you love what you were doing? Say thank you and get back to work.

Where is your spark?

Posted: February 22, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: daily musings | Tags: , , | Leave a comment

Where is your spark? I want to see you smile, to run, to play. Are you sick? Are you sad? If you could speak I would know. But you can’t. What will make you come back to life?

What a difference a day makes…

Posted: February 10, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: daily musings | Tags: , , | Leave a comment

Well wouldn’t you know it, some positivity has shown its self. A few calls for work, that’s a great start. A good night’s sleep; so hard to come by but so great. Now can I make it two nights in a row?

Everyone Struggles?

Posted: February 9, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: daily musings | Tags: , , , | Leave a comment

Everyone struggles. How do you get passed it? Turning to unhealthy habits is not the answer, but that seems to be how I cope. It is a nice warm blanket for your mind, but it burns me out too fast. The lack of good sleep wears and wears until I have anxiety about fun things just because I’m worried about being tired. Moderation. Center yourself. Right here, right now, what can you do to feel better and increase your chances at success going forward? I can make business better, but I can get out there and meet people, and I can work on the internal systems to prepare for the calls. The stress comes from the day to day waiting for the phone to ring. I will be ok, it’s my family that I’m worried about. How can I bear the brunt of this while staying sane and healthy myself?

clarity

Posted: January 31, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: daily musings | Tags: , , , | Leave a comment

I shot out of bed today, with no substances in my body that try to keep me there. The truth is it is beautiful, but I cannot imagine it will last.

move forward

Posted: January 30, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: daily musings | Tags: , | Leave a comment

Change is life and it moves forward with or without your input. Instead of being depressed about what isn’t happening now, I try to think what could happen next.

I met some really special people today; brothers with handicaps, working together. The ride home I kept thinking how some things seem bigger than they are.

Love endlessly and live effortlessly.

being in control

Posted: January 26, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: daily musings | Tags: , , | Leave a comment

business workshop – a million great ideas, now where do i start? do not get overwhelmed when opportunities present themselves. that is what hard work is meant to yield. you want to be in the driver’s seat of your life, not just being along for the ride. keep putting out love.

writing

Posted: January 19, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: daily musings | Tags: , , | Leave a comment

when i write i bring the truth of my situation out. it is a great therapy for me. however, i still need help and support outside of myself. i am blessed to have a supportive wife and family, plus many, many friends on my side. as i write i already feel bad about questioning my situation, but sometimes failure is unavoidable. my work is not doing what it is supposed to right now. whether it’s out of my control or not, something needs to break.

all i can do is work hard and smart. that is a tough pill to swallow, but it’s time to put my money where my mouth is; put out love and expect nothing in return.

frustration

Posted: January 19, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: Haiku | Tags: , | Leave a comment

recession or not
we are in need of work now.
please please think of us.

wonder

Posted: January 18, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: daily musings | Tags: , , | Leave a comment

I have been spending a lot of energy thinking about all of my effort recently. I do not care about being rich, but I want to be finacially stable; not living paycheck to paycheck. I’ve put a lot of time into things I love, which is very rewarding… but am I spinning my tires instead of moving towards a stress free economy for my family? Happiness is a priority for me this year. As is love. We will get by, but not struggling and stressing every month (or week) would be great. Can I make what I love into a career? Only time will tell, but I am wracked with anxiety and thoughts of jumping ship to get on a more worn path. I need a sign God.

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