Time to start up again… for the first time.
Posted: October 25, 2012 Filed under: daily musings Leave a commentHello faithful reader(s),
After a rough summer, things are looking up. Somethings are looking down of course, but either way I need to write what I’m feeling, to help me work through my stuff and maybe even help or get help from someone out in the world. I’m going to work on daily posts again, ranging from haiku’s to longs stories, short stories to dirty jokes. Anything goes.
Until tomorrow,
Richard Awesome
PS. This mess is my life’s work. You’re welcome.
Expectations
Posted: September 4, 2012 Filed under: daily musings | Tags: anxiety, complete honesty Leave a commentManaging your own expectations is hard enough, but I find myself easily worn out and frustrated when I have friends and family complain to me about something that is out of my, or anyone’s control. I don’t know why I take this stuff so much to heart. It is probably not meant to be a complaint about me, but I have this internal fault that wants to solve all problems, so when they can’t, I get anxious and cannot function until it’s resolved.
The same goes with art. So many people want everything to be perfect before it goes out. I also want to put out the purest creation I can, but I’m not afraid to pull the trigger. Because of this people always assume I want to just rush things out, and that couldn’t be farther from the truth. I just don’t want to waste 2 years on something that should take 2 months. Nothing is perfect, and until you get it out there you can’t learn where you made your mistakes and how you can get better the next time.
The key for me is to remain patient and realize I am not in charge of fixing all problems. And for you, don’t be afraid to let it all hang out. Everyone’s a critic, but only a few of us are artists.
Zen and the Art of part-time Landscaping
Posted: May 24, 2012 Filed under: daily musings | Tags: 1, the way Leave a commentWell, hello again. I have begun landscaping to supplement my income 2 days per week. This is not an easy pill to swallow after 2 years of doing what I really believe in. But I need to make myself not go insane, so I’ve decided to stop and take five deep breaths (counting 1 on the in, 2 on the out, 3 in, 4 out, etc etc to 10) every time I begin to lose it. While doing so I begin to listen to the birds chirping, I begin to watch the spiders crawl around in the dirt. I’m hot, I’m sweaty, I’m tired. But I am not unaware of how beautiful working outside on those perfect days really is. True life is blue skies, green plants and brown dirt. It’s working until you can’t work anymore. Taking a short break then working again. Humbleness never hurt my back this bad before, but I’m grateful for it.
1nce per week.
Posted: March 29, 2012 Filed under: daily musings | Tags: busy busy busy Leave a commentI’m going to attempt to post once per week. First a daily haiku got to be burdensome, then just a daily post did. I’m busy, and I’m writing a bit, but I don’t want this blog to die. When I have something on my mind I will come here. Until then – don’t worry, be happy.
Yes you can.
Posted: March 21, 2012 Filed under: daily musings | Tags: complete honesty, curiosity, success Leave a commentI have been telling myself, writing to myself and everything else the following words: Yes you can. Sometimes I don’t believe it, but I need it to keep me pushing forward. In my own little world, times are tough. I know people would envy what I have, but sometimes I envy what they have. I need to keep fighting to make my own way but also know when I need help. I have a great group surrounding me, that is a plus. My truth is my strength though. Stay with that and I have to be satisfied in the end. Right?
Climbing inward.
Posted: March 15, 2012 Filed under: daily musings | Tags: daily haiku, random thought Leave a commentThe stronger your will,
the higher grows your own hill.
Love even the climbing.
I can’t go back.
Posted: March 15, 2012 Filed under: daily musings | Tags: 1, happiness, Love, perseverance Leave a commentI’ve spent 2 years working from home for a small, family company. I spent the 4 years before that in a large company, low pay and no real advancement opportunity. Now I need to generate a steady income. I can’t go back to the “real” world and “work for a living”. Other people have supported themselves, why can’t I? Fear. Weed. Trust what is inside of you. Try to really make it on your own. You CAN do it. Why not think that? Learn learn learn. “You rise to the height of your deepest admirations”. Control this moment and let go. Even relaxing allows you to move closer to the 1. Everything in moderation. You are filling your time with what you love, NEVER FORGET THAT.
Being 100% me.
Posted: March 12, 2012 Filed under: daily musings | Tags: lego my ego, munday, no-mind Leave a commentI need to be fully me. No time for ego and it’s veil of security and human affairs. It makes me happy to hang out and create with friends. Or by myself. If I want to do it, then I need to do it, at all times. “At all times” is almost misleading, because this is me. Time is irrelevant. Right here. Right now.
What is it about music?
Posted: March 6, 2012 Filed under: daily musings | Tags: curiosity, happiness, random thought Leave a commentMusic has only been such spiritual thing for me. The pure connection I feel pulls me out of the dumps and it’s what I’m flying on when I’ve never been better.
No matter what is going on it gives me strength. I’ve heard it called the language of the gods and I believe that. If love is what we seek, music is the purest way to express it.
I’m clinging to it right now hoping to get through this pressure.
Stick to your priorities and change will not phase you.
Posted: March 5, 2012 Filed under: daily musings | Tags: complete honesty, goals vs priorities, munday Leave a commentI have nothing to fear, but change is happening in my work life. I have had the pleasure of working from home for 2 years now, and getting back into the ‘real’ world, even on a part-time basis is frustrating and scary. But I have some opportunities to do fun things, or at least things with fun people. And I need to remember that at least it’s only part-time right now. Keep putting whatever you can into the career. The more fluid you are, the more efficient you are, emotionally, spiritually and professionally.
Everything is constantly evolving, but sometimes I cling to memories so tightly I am afraid to experience fully the wonder, happiness, sorrow and everything else that is a complete life. Purity and relaxation help stay in the now.
Always I need to focus on my Bliss List. I can weather any storm by sticking to what is truly me. Stress is best handled with sleep, exercise and healthy eating. Not drinking and smoking.
richard awesome 